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Breaking up is never fun. It is true that the end of a relationship is the beginning of mourning and HEALING… It is true that mending a broken heart will not happen overnight…

It’s been quite sometime since I haven’t said anything, I think it’s not going to hurt just to say a
word or two - For the first time I am breaking my silence, since am also about to close this chapter of my life (just about time!).

Just for clarification…

It is not true that am moving or “running away” to the Midwest because of someone. I am not running away from someone, I am moving because I have to! I have been waiting for this chance and now it’s here, am I just going to let it pass?

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“Hope is not a dream but a way of making dreams become reality.” - L. J. Suenens

Thanks Agnes for everything… I am so blessed to have you as one of my friends *ugh, as in friends lang ba talaga?* - huhuhuh **dabog-DABOG-dabog$#%^%**)*#$&* Pero talaga salamat kaibigan…

It is true that I am really going through with alot of things right at this moment (Ikaw ba naman ang molestiyahin ng employer mo 24/7 diba?). Pakainin ka ba naman ng flurwax at ihulog sa hagdaan?&$%#%$^**_

There is no reason for me to check in myself in a Rehab. Cause it is NOT true that captain and tennille are back in each others arms… It’s just hearsay… (Wag kayong maniniwala kay Chuva! Delusional yang babaitang yan lol). Dutch why I get to keep the $100! O diva antaray? (Give it a time, say 2 weeks bwahahah charing lang pusa nangiinis lang po)… Ayan Chuvahan na… Kaya nasusulatan ng Malacanang Palace eh.

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I could have known much better that what happened last night at some parking lot in Marlton is coming my way and I “could have” done something from preventing it a long time ago - it’s just I am soooo stubborn.

I have never felt so humiliated in my entire life not until last night - I feel so less of a human that I have stoop down from someone’s level and I know much better than that, that I should and could have just avoided it a very long time ago. A LONGGGGG TIMEEE AGOOO!

What I did last night was still in my mind and still very much bothers me, I am not so proud of myself right now, I really-really feel so horrible. I did not imagine that I am capable of doing such a thing - It’s scary though…

I learned the hard way
That they all say
Things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
Your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry

Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I’m trying to let you hear me as I am

Thanks ever to my dearest friends like Malen, Agnes and Chuva who was there last night listening to my MMK, Pinoy Thiller and Regal Shocker stories. I hope you guys won’t get tired of me - Ayan ibinalik na ni Chuva ang isang daang dolyar bwehehehe talo sya eh, ay kayo pala lol… Taasan nyo naman kasi ang bid please? LOL.

I had built a prison of my own self for quite sometime and I had become accustomed to that and had accepted the false premise that I was incarcerated for life. I have sacrifice my happiness for for someone’s.

I admit that I had become a puppet and it sucks big time! Am glad that I am back on my feet again…

I would like to thank my sponsors - Arlington for my make up, Mighty Kid for my footwear and Eloy’s for my outfit today, thanks and more power!

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