Diwatang Byaning

Than being thin!

To me to eat is an issue… It’s like a criminal act. If I eat something it didn’t felt right, I feel am some kind of an outlaw… Not like Bonnie and Clyde though but I feel like I was one of the Chubby Gang member.

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Okay, *sighs deeply* I have pulled myself from the game. The game of pretentiousness… (Ahh, I am on a diet, SERIOUSLY!!!) I am never eating carbs again no never! Am on a diet my whole life… Name I been on it and am effin on it. From south beach, atkins, weight watchers, jenny craig, jenny craig buster, jenny effin craig diet or whatever it is I am freaking on it.

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As being thin!

I have a problem, I have an eating disorder, I’ve had one my whole life.

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“The Doctor said I am not overweight, Am just obese. What is obese???” - SomeoneIKnow

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As being thin.

I cannot look at this women’s magazine anymore. Don’t get me wrong… I love fashion - I love women specially skinny beautiful women! [WOOT-WOOT]…
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Being here in Guantanano Bay for over 2 weeks now is not bad at all, as I’ve said 2 days ago I am really loving it here. I was treated like a royalty here. The other day feed me Korean food (Bibimbap), unlike at home what I usually have is just (Kanibab) as in Kaning Baboy lols.

Their very lenient with me, cause today instead of working in the “YARD” for 8 full hours… They have pulled me out so I did my beauty regimen - I did my colonic (I feel so fresh!). Tapos nito nagpabanat na din ako ng muka at nagpa full body wax… Masarap pala ang buhay dine?

I have been really-really-really bad person (Stubborn). And that is the reason why I am stuck here in Guantanamo - I guess. I remember a few days ago before I have found myself here. I have been patted on the back by someone and I didn’t look I just did what I just wanted to do and after a few days I have tripped myself off the floor and the next thing I knew is that I am here already it’s like the movie SAW no? Scary! - I have nothing to complain [Except for 1 heheh 1 entry a day? OMG, my revenues…] they’ve been really really nice to me here, after all?
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Like other woman I have issues too.

As y’all know am an Ethnic Lesbian, am queer and am here. [Being a Minority is one of my issues… Uhg I should have Majored in Women Studies! Instead of Marketing and Networking!!!]

One of my issues that bothers me is my weight.

I worry all the time about how I look.

I’ve been on a diet since… Forever?

People doesn’t see me as fat bitch. But whenever I looked at the mirror eww I just want to go puke. [It’s making me sick to my stomach. Uhhgg.]

There are times that I love and hate myself. [Today? Hmm I love myself. All I ate was just Apples and Metamucil. Which I will purge later!]

I Am always in-denial of hunger.

To eat is an issue to me.

I just can’t believe what’s happening to me lately. I’ve been on a diet. Been working out on a regular basis… And yet I’ve gain freakin’ 5 pounds!!! What the… I don’t know where the hell it came from.

Is it just water??? Did I gain mass??? — Now, I think am gonna die! Not just die… Am gonna die fat and alone. Waaaaaahhhhh…

Most of the people I know tell me that I ain’t fat. Maybe their just saying that… Am not gonna be convinced… I will still feel fat… No matter what…

I am 5′3 and weighs 95 lbs. [I am overweight! I am suffering from Obesity!]

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