Diwatang Byaning

I should know better! -been there, done that. Well, I wanted to share y’all my secret. Read on…

1. Moleskin/Canvas/Watercolors/Charcoal/Colored Pencils
-Whenever am lonely, I just grab my moleskin and my other gadgets and just doodle that away. I usually express myself through writing stuffs on my moleskin. I bet when you see my moleskin you’ll be surprise - it’s halo-halong kalamay, oh my gulay. I usually do a sketch of the person I hate/broke my heart and put a spell on that person bwahahahha, just kidding! Though it is really helpful and it is such a therapy for me.

2. Chill Out Music
-Time to get that Edison cylinder phonograph from the attic and tis the time I listen to my classic 45s bwahahah! FYI I am not that old yet, most of my friends consider me very young - young looking and young at heart (sa tagalog wala ka pa ring pinagkatandaan!) When I say chill out, it means something… Like to relax… Right? So my choices are from Thievery Corporation, Nightmares on Wax, Solu, Trentemoller, Jam and Spoon, Imogen Heap, Dzihan and Kamien, Bonnie Bailey and ohhh much more… (want to know what is more funny? one of my “not so hada” before went through my play list, she listened and suddenly out of the blue, asked me… Do you do E? - I said, yeah. As in sa tanda kong to, I didn’t know that she is referring to Ecstasy Ecstano, Ang alam kong E eh Elephant Katol no!)

3. Scented Candles/Oils/Aromatherapy
-Prepare alot of this stuff! For me, this is the ultimate stress-relief aside from clorox (If y’all don’t know, I usually get an orgasm with the clorox scent lol). Another FAK, The history of Aromatherapy started with the ancient Egyptians. Over 6,000 years ago, the Egyptians realized the value of essential oils that came from different plants. They used these oils during baths, with massages and sometimes to even embalm their dead. This type of therapy soon died down but in the early 1930’s the use of Aromatherapy began to grow again and today is a widely used method. (kaya mag-aromatherapy kana!)

4. Foam Bath
-Another stress relief indeed! Doing a foaming bath is clinically shown to help your body calm and relax you while you bathe. (hindi nyo na itatago, 5 beses akong maligo sa isang araw. ipinaglihi ako kay Dyesebel.)

5. Blog
-My one and only friend! It’s where I have publicly humiliated myself and my family, but still, I had fun doing it so… So who cares? And by the way, it’s where I get my moolah! So, sign up na! At habang nag-sign-up kayo? Mag donate na din kayo!

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We all know that breaking up is hard to do (been there, done that). Breaking up is part or a thing in everybody’s life that is unavoidable. Well, most of our romantic relationships that begin with joy and excitement, can also end with a painful break up that’s really true! Believe me. I want to share with you all the DO’s and DON’TS if you want to break up with somebody. As the title it is, I will teach you all to do in a very humane and civilized way lol.

Break up with style and class 101

1. Be Sensitive - By this I did not say that you have to use the famous line “It’s not you, it’s me” this is a great excuse for breaking up with somebody if you don’t want to hurt their feelings BUT never,ever use this line.
Sensitive in a way of, well no one likes to get dumped, really. If it’s not really working anymore, well just say so and just be sensitive when saying so. Get it? Be honest!

2. Do It In Person - Come on, we are not kids anymore. You don’t break up over the phone, sms message or an email, DUH! Have some balls and tell it in person. It’s hard I know, but you gotta do, what you have to do.

3. Do It In A Less Public Place - Always pick an appropriate place. The less public, the better. When breaking up, there’s always a RIGHT place and a RIGHT time.

4. Timing - Well as I’ve said on number 3 there is always a right place and a right time. Right time means, you don’t break up during holidays or special occasions (birthday, funeral…,). You don’t want the receiving end to remember you as that occasion rolls down, right?

5. Always have class and style! Whether you are a dumpee/dumper everything’s going to be okay after all.

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I know, I don’t really deserve her. I can do much better than that *bleecch*.

“I QUIT” 2 days ago. I know it’s hard, we been together for quiet some time, but I cannot do anything anymore, it’s like it’s just not working anymore, but hey no regrets. I have tried and really gave my best - I could say… More than my best.

She is not the only person in the www (whole-wide-world). I just couldn’t get myself why did I let someone do what she did to me (hindi naman ako panget, hindi ko naman sinasabing maganda ako. may itchura ako oo. masama nga lang nagk-ngak-ngak). No but seriously, no one and nobody deserves to be mistreated.

UPDATE:

Dear Joe,

Today, I got a valentines card from her through usps. Honestly, I miss her (love changes, but it doesn’t have to end - o diba, hindi ako bitter!) Joe. Some things things have changed. I know that loving someone doesn’t mean you have to be together, our ever dearest abusive relationship ended already - but, just because a relationship ended, didn’t mean the love has ended too, I know it may really take while little by little, step by step. The little b*i*** has to really learn her lesson.

Joe I could not describe how happy I am right now, cause I can be me, no-more-no-less.

Two Weeks Ago:

She is so kind! She bought us Tiramisu, for our breakfast, I am not really into cakes, it’s fattening no! She was upstairs studying. So, what I did was made her hot chocolate and gave her a piece of that Tiramisu (the reason why our ever dearest abusive relationship had put to an end). Before I took the cake upstairs… The cake looks very good and it really interests me to take a dip of my finger and have a taste of it and after that I all I know is that the cake that I was supposed to give her is already in half (I have a piece of this cake too, in the fridge but am just too YW$%E^&TYIOI lazy to get my own.) As I’ve said, I don’t like sweets, and did not really expect that I’ll like it…

To be continued…

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-Pretensyosa talaga ako, bakit nga ba hindi na lang ako naging artista? Malamang sumikat ako sa galing ko makipag-plastikan aba! Hindi lang ako pretensyosa, feeling to mala wonder woman din ako!

Bago matulog iiyak, pagkagising iyak ulit! Ayaw ko nang matulog at magising… Anong klaseng buhay ba to or bato? Whatever!

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We have been arguing for the past 2 or 3 days about a small thing, a very small thing that grew bigger and deeper. So we were shouting and yelling at each other on the phone and she txted me something that I don’t like. (Ayaw ko ng minumura ako, nanliit ako sa sarili ko.) I should just leave it like that, and took it as a closure, but I didn’t… Gumanti ako the next day… Pinagmumura ko din sya, bawat sentence may F word. Lahat ng sama ng loob ko at nasa kaloob-looban ko sinabi ko. I couldn’t imagine myself doing that specially to people who are dear to me. (I have this attitude na I have to get even. Paramdam ko din sayo kung anong nararamdaman ko. Mali ako. Dapat pinalagpas ko na lang.) Now I really feel guilty. Do I have to really feel guilty about it? Hindi ako papatalo kahit pa gaano na ako nasasaktan.

Earlier as soon as I woke up… I txted her that I felt her somewhere in my bed I thought she was there sleeping with me. (Guni-guni ko lang pala.) I went downstairs and head outside for a smoke.
I saw a bag full of things that I gave her. Everything was there even the tiniest smallest thing that I have given her. It hurts me. But I can’t to anything I know her… That’s her personality.

-aktuali akong laging nakikipaghiwalay eh.

I checked out the bag and there was a letter…

I’m sorry that I made it end like this. You said you know everythings. But you know what? Just only one thing that you never known. It’s how exactly I feel? No one know except me…

I was so happy being with you, spend time with you that I never had in my life, Even we will not together anymore. Please… know thise…

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

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