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I want to drink this now as in now na!!!

There’s just too much stress going on with my life right now. People who doesn’t give a fcuk and a slack to me… And one of em’ was my instructor. She is really gettin’ on my nerves earlier, the other day and alllllllllll the time, longggggggggg time - paano ba naman, nak ng pota may date ata si potah kanina nagmamadali ng nagmamadali… I just hate it. Might as well dismiss the class diva? One of the girls in my class told me that we don’t really need the stuff that she was sayin’ earlier - tipo bang just for the heck of it - basta maibigay at nasabing ibinigay nya. Ganun lang… Footang ina *Malutong sa dulo!*

Secondly, my phone’s been acting such dramassssssseesss lately. Minsan mamatay ng sarili, minsan sisindi magisa ka-urat. Kapag nag off bago mo magamit txt or call after an hour pa, ultimo phone book, di maka-access. Punyeta, poverty! Haysigh *Buntong hiningang malalim na hinugot sa pwet mo!* So para wala nang stress… I will call my cell phone provider and cancel the service, para manahimik na din ang buhay ko… Naiirita na ako sa mga letcheng no number at mga letsugas na number na natawag sa akin na hindi ko naman kilala ang number. (I guess it’s okay to cancel, wala namang nagmamahal sa akin eh., Bukod kay Jake [Wala namang cell yon eh, and besides aso po si Jake lol.] At hindi para magbayad ako ng monthly service ng wala - as in wala lang.)

Later bitches!

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I feel so aaaaawwwwful today… I was so down under. I even went home early as in 6:05 PM lol, I canceled my activity and as soon as I got home derecho sa sofa at humilata - I feel so consumed, anxious, sad, sorry, low at kung anik anik pang ka-negatibitihan to the maxx. [I was actually very pissed, earlier today. Tao lang ako.]

…I slept for about 45 minutes ng hindi nagpalit, (At times like this, nagiging balahura ako.) I woke up and went to the shower and went straight to bed again, natulog ulit?

Then around 10 my phone rang…

“Yes, I cried - I cried the tear. You wiped it dry. I was confused. You cleared my mind. I sold my soul. You bought it back for me. And held me up and gave me dignity… Ekkkkk, until I feel asleep.”

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These days I am not myself. I just keep forgetting things, as in! (There was even a time that I am looking for my sunglasses so bad…  And it happen that I looked at myself in the mirror - and that’s the only time that I discovered that it’s in my head. Hahaha… *As in naloloka-loka na ako kakahanap!* Kung ahas sya natuka na ako.) I am getting worried, really! Kasi baka mamaya puday ko naman ma-misplace ko!!! *Kakahiya, it’s cobwebby.*

Today my friend up north came to visit me, I was looking for my wallet - Guess what? I couldn’t find it. Binaliktad ko na bag ko at kama ko pero hindi ko pa din makita waaaaa. *Iyak* Paano ba naman - my I.D was there, my credit cards, my debit card, my social - footah buhay ko andoon! *I am worried, cause my pin on my debit is my DOB. Eh paano kung so smart ang nakakuha diba?* Why my dob? Well, simply because I am really getting forgetful noh. Kaya nga buong kabaranGHEY ko alam ang password ko kasi nga ‘just in case na makalimutan ko diba? May mapagtatanungan ako!’ Hahaha - ANLALA!!! (TRUE!)

Last night I was with Doreen, I called her earlier just to ask, if she happens to see my wallet. But she said she didn’t. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa *Iyak-iyak!!!* ~~~ After 3 hours, she called me at tinalakan ako ng BONGGANG-BONGA… Asa kanya pala. Yon na nga kung di dumating ang kebigan ko, hindi ko malalaman na nawawalan na pala ako ng kabuhayan. Grrrrrr…

Things that happened to me in the past, like 15 years ago - I remember, crystal clear.  But things that happened recently, like errrr yesterday or the other day - I can’t seem to remember those.

I am afraid… I am scared… I anxious…

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