I have alot of self-esteem, which is amazing. Cause I am probably somebody who wouldn't necessarily have alot of self-esteem... As I am considered a Minority.
If you are a woman, a person of color, gay/lesbian/bisexual/trans-gender, a person of size, a person of intelligence, a person of integrity... Then you are considered a Minority in this world.
If Liz Murray has Homeless to Harvard and KC Concepcion has From Paris to Pinas (I Diwatang_Byaning have From Svay Pak to Olongapo City Mabuheyheyheyheyhey [Hmmm, let’s see those durty old b@$tard$ come out!]
You’re my hero! Thanks for this gorgeous/fatabolous/fantastic/great/for all seaon/megasuperdiamond looking site. I don’t know how am I going to thank you… [O, Demi it’s not you that am talking about here, baka nag-fe-feling ka na naman jan? Though I also thank you for volunteering in the quality control/security dept.] Thanks ever for this miracle, istatue Annie Sulivan?
If you are a regular of diwatangbyaning dot com you know what am talking about… NO - I did not won the lottery [Shhhssshh]… There are just some people or hmmm should I say Engkanto [Fairie]?, that are really nice and is very willing to help people like me organize my life? [Blogging! LOL] (more…)
With her there are no dull moments! There is NO day that we didn’t end it with a fight or an argument. Yeah it is true that you cannot teach a 5 year old kid to think like a 12 year old, well here’s more even better you cannot teach an old dog new tricks *true that!*
With her I just listened, I cannot talk or even voice out my opinion *obviously that’s why am blogging lol*. She’s just too stubborn and what is worst is that she wanted me to be someone that I am not! When I talk to her she wants to hear the things only, the things that she wants to hear, and am not that kind of person *may sariling po akong isip, kahapon ko lang nalaman* :::wheeee::: I am free!!! Pwede na akong lumandi evah!
Of all the educated people I have met she is the most uneducated! Flang! Why? Kung mura-murahin ako nyan kala mo sa squalor nakatira ang *u**! Nobody has ever done that *&%^% to me… And yet I let her… Tsk-tsk-tsk, I have lost confidence sure which I know I could still replace it. There are things that I have lost and cannot be replaced and that’s my dignity, self-esteem and my self-respect the most important of all. Oh well it is still never too late…
Just a few minutes ago, I have received a txt message from her BLAH-BLAH-KIAW-KIAW-KIAW wala akong pakialam *turns off phone* So I let Chuva read it first para suspence hehehe…
Me: O sinong kayang unang nilabasan ngayon? Bwahahaha…
I don’t need nobody’s approval! If you don’t like be then leave the hell off my face! (from now on ibabalik ko ang diwatang arogante). I am what I am. You can never change me (as the saying, you cannot teach an old dog new tricks) BOW… Tara Malen hanggang sa huling el bimbo to!
Tanunging nyo ako kung anong pinagawayan namin BILIS!
I don’t need no stress in my life. I have alot of things going on with me my full time/part time work, school and blogging the most stressful of them all lol… Actually she stresses me more than these things for real yo!
Today I had just ended my ever dearest abusive relationship with her, I just had enough… I am so sick and tired of it, it’s like never-ending it’s just a cycle (paulit-ulit, nakakasawa na at talagang nakakapagod). I am so damn proud of myself right now, cause I was the one who broke if off (it’s not that am bragging about it, but usually she breaks it off often than me, maybe I was just really-really-really badly burned out that’s why). Well it’s been a pending break up actually! A long pending break up indeed!!! HA HA HA… I just have to do what I have to do (I just could not take it anymore). Sabi nga ni Chuva, kapag natatae ka saan ka nagpupunta? Kapag naiihi ka saan ka nagpupunta? Eh paano ba yan sukang-suka na ako??? No more effin foreplay for me…
Chuva: Ganyan naman kayo lagi ehh *kaloka!* Tignan natin kung sinong unang lalabasan!
The trafficking of human beings is the recruitment, transportation, harboring, or receipt of people for the purpose of exploitation. It is estimated to be a $5 to $9 billion-a-year industry.
Exploitation includes forcing people into prostitution or other forms of sexual exploitation, forced labor or services, slavery or practices similar to slavery. Once the victim is already in America they are forced to do what their captors want them to do.
The trafficking victim is enslaved, or the terms of their debt bondage are fraudulent or highly exploitative. The trafficker takes away the basic human rights of the victim. The victims doesn’t have any choice, if they don’t do what these people want them to do, then their life is threathend or their family’s life back home.
Most of the victims are tricked and lured by false promises. They are even physically forced. Some traffickers use coercive and manipulative tactics including deception, intimidation, feigned love, isolation, threat and use of physical force, debt bondage, other abuse, or even force-feeding with drugs to control their victims.
Posted on 11 February 2008Comment (1) Tags: Uncategorized
The other day I was watching TV and saw alot of women that has been trafficked into America as sex slaves.
I could not believe their stories, it was so tragic and very dehumanizing to their end, but it happened already.
In the show that I have watched women are mostly the victims. They are lured, and what was told to them is that they are going to work as “food servers” in some restaurant here in America and when they get here that is the only time that they knew that they are going to be working 12 hours a day as a sex slaves. They migrated willingly-legally and illegally-but are subsequently subjected to conditions of involuntary servitude at work sites.
I wanted to share my fortune or should I say misfortune? Eto ang chika…
A little craziness is just what you need — and it’ll give your relationship a boost, too. Be your wildest, most uninhibited self. The resulting shake-up will rattle any remaining doldrums in your life.
-Tama ba nababasa ko? Inuulol ba ako ng hulang ito? Craziness is what I needed? Eh kulang na lang magsaksakan kami at patayin ang isat’isa! Is that what you call a little craziness? I dunno what I really want as of now… Should I go or should I stay… Litong-lito na ako. Hindi ko na kilala ang sarili ko. Hindi ko malaman kung ano talaga ang gusto ko. Nahawa na po ako ng pagka-bipolar.
I feel angry, embarrassed and ashamed at times. Am I to be considered an in denial battered woman? I have experienced alot of abuse, really. But I managed to stay alive and fight it. Quitters are losers and I’m no quitter.
I may not have any black eyes and or broken bones. However, domestic abuse encompasses a whole range of ways of controlling and hurting. My stupid mistake is thinking the one who hurt me most, won’t hurt me again… Words sometimes can hurt more than a punch. Words penetrate your very being, have the ability to make or break your day. Words hurt the spirit and bruise the heart, some “internal’ bruises stay with you a life time. - NOooo she didn’t call me the N word thou. LOL. - Kaya nga I really need to talk and see my councilor no… Ano ba tong nararamdaman ko? Is it love or lust?
I have traveled a road going far too down and deep… I should have looked first before I took this road.
I have lost my self-esteem. For me this is very important. The most important possession a person has is their self-esteem. Self-esteem can move mountains and maybe, just maybe change your fortune too…
It’s not about complaining, blaming or even pointing fingers… I guess “Life is all about turning lemons into lemonade”.
Posted on 20 May 2007Comments (4) Tags: Uncategorized
It’s been almost 4 weeks now since I decided to partially gave up eating meat.[Hope for good.]
For the past four weeks all am eating is just fruits and veggies — apples, bananas, celery carrots and the like. I eat 7 times a day. But in a very small servings. I had to take a rain check for now in going to the gym. [Am still adjusting to this new kind of lifestyle I just found.]
You don’t want to know how cranky I am these past few days. Naman! My co-workers would ask me if am pms-ing or am I having my early stages of menopause because I have been such a bitch. He he he… [Gutom lang pala eh no?]
Anyways I’ve lost almost 10 lbs already! Yippie!!! Kailangan magkasya sa akin yong size0 kong maong na 2piece bathing suit noong 10 years pa nakakaraan! Charing! [Aysus specially now that I have a girlfriend already… Who weighs 94 lbs. Naku! Laban kung laban talaga. Dapat muganda din ako no! I need to be at least 93 lbs.!!! HA HA HA HA… j/k.] I still got a long way to go… I wonder how many more apples and bananans I have to eat in a BLAH! Darn it!
I dunno I always feel bloated whenever I eat anything. [My normal food.] Not just I felt am bloated… It felt like my hands and face and some parts of my body are swollen. [I think it’s called Edema. Manas in Tagalog!]
It might be from the foods that I been eating too. Like most of the resataurants that I go to maybe they put alot of MSG on their food [Filipino Restaurants?, and YEAH!… Almost most of the Chinese Restaurants they say they don’t do MSG Okay whatever! Talk to the hand!] Call me lazy but I never cook, most of the time I buy my food at the said restaurants.
Well I ate meat twice already in a span of four weeks in a very small portions. I need my protein too. Tao naman din ako. Naghahangad ng Carne! But when I saw this video… I kind changed my mind in eating meat again…
Posted on 09 April 2007Comments (2) Tags: Uncategorized
Yesterday i was doin my usual thing, blogging, reading emails, on the phone, chattin with a friend at skype, doin‘ my laundry, folding clothes and watching t.v… ETC. ETC. ETC. All at the same time. =P
When i saw this advertisement… I asked myself… Only one question.
How can somebody do something like this to this to this innocent creatures???
I remembered last week when i was watching Animal Planet. I was horrified! I saw alot of dogs used in for dog fights. [Shame on those owners!!! Who are only interested on them for fighting or for protection.]
