I have alot of self-esteem, which is amazing. Cause I am probably somebody who wouldn't necessarily have alot of self-esteem... As I am considered a Minority.
If you are a woman, a person of color, gay/lesbian/bisexual/trans-gender, a person of size, a person of intelligence, a person of integrity... Then you are considered a Minority in this world.
My dreams into reality — slogan doon sa isang spa sa tapat ng aming favrica… Hmmm binibnili nga nila tong photo na to, kaya lang daw may konting problema, magaspang daw masyado yong kamay ng mowdel! Para daw kamay ng magsasaka - di uubra. Sayang!
I’ve been in hell for almost errrr 10 months ata, (vacations, day offs, rendezvous not counted lol.) parang sangol na di mailabas-labas sa sinapupunuan ampotah ganun katagal overdue na. Sabi ko nga yong bahay ko noon parang nasa Jalalabad/Chechnya/Iran/North Korea/Peshawar/Impiyerno sabay ikot sa purgatoryo sabay balik ulit ng Jalalabad/Chechnya/Iran/North Korea/Peshawar ugh… Everyday in that span of 10 months hmmm exxag siguro hmmm 8 months sige na nga! I’ve been losing 10 lbs of ego/5 kilos of self-esteem/10 tons of confidence everyday. Trulala!!! Syet.
Home, home, home, oh home! Wheeeeeeeee - psshhht… Priceless! *You really get what you pay for, kaya kung hindi ka nagbabayad ng renta — sigaw ang abot mo bwahahaha! For reals…*
Naalala ko noon, kung saan-saan ako natutulog. Ganun kung saan na lang dapuan ng antok. Minsan sa upuan sa mall (Napagod kakalakad? O walang pang shopping?) sa lobby ng Bally not so total fitness at kung saan-saan pa! But now I can say - loud and froud Am here, Am queer get use to it! that I found home, I am much more happier and at peace - I feel hole again…
Others may prefer their home to have a dash of Balinese or Japanese eklachuchu in it… I prefer mine, Filipiniana! Sariling atin… Of course, love your own!
Ugh, a beer simply won’t do it - I had a really-really-really rough day! (Sakit sa ulo!) But it’s all good now — aalis na ako dito sa tarbahu pagpitada ng ala seis!, which is now na!!! Hmmm cranberry vodka greygoose *Hahaha, kala mo tumador eh?*
Ano yon bulate, bakterya, mikrobyo? Ackkk - Today as I wake up sa mala motmot kong room [Kasi ang aking windows may shutter, sosyal? Parang feeling ko nga nasa Anito ako eh. Mapa-umaga/gabi sa akin gabi lagi shhheet!] Ang putla ko na nga, di nasisikatan ng araw?
So anyways para on topic! Nagising ang lola na in peace (yong wala akong inintindi na kasama.) — and wala lang, I am sooooooo soooooooo sooooo thankful! Na tahimik eklachuchu na yung buhay ko, yong ganun ba? For 8 months grabe just picture this - daig ko pa ang pumunta sa Kosovo/Albania/Jalalabad/Chechnya sabay umikot sa imperno ugh at sabay bumalik ulit sa Kosovo/Albania/Jalalabad/Chechnya sabay side trip sa North Korea bwahaha, just imagine kung paano at gaano yan…
Putukan na!!! *Hoy mga magickera, careful-careful, alam nyo na. Aba mahirap na ang maputukan no…*
I love wine. [A meal is not a meal to me if there is no wine.] (Kahit pa tukneneng lang ang hapunan?) I wasn’t really into wines — but then again, kapag naTANDA KA, sometimes you wanted something tame right? Hahahaha…. Owkey, so who am I fooling here? I think I can drink almost anything. *Presses the buzzer* Ekkk Malt liquor? Bwahahaha - Pucha, try harder! *Presses the buzzer again* Everclear? Hahaha, ekkkk no - not ever.
I love this ever-ever (Kaya nga eto, re-post daw eh…) I did this post, when I was just starting to blog. Sisihin si Barbie kung bakit madaming naging tibo ek-ek magic bwahahaha…
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I was so bothered last week hmmm — I somehow find myself staring at the four corners of my ceiling, at kung nasa labas naman ako sa alapaap. (Habang nakain ng Sky Flakes? Hahahah. Tulala ampootah!) Now, I am a little bit OK - I have to right? Sometimes there are things that we just have to forget and let go. Although *May flashbacks pa din?* Somehow hindi pa din ako maka-get-over sa sakunang nangyari.
I am wandering, what happened - Where, How and Why - I have lost you…
12/19/2009 - It snowed whole day/night non-stop, and it was a pretty much heavy snow. In fact it was up to the neck, kung si mahal yong tao diba? For me since matangkad ako? It’s up to my thighs hahaha nakaluhod kasi ako? [Ayaw na nga ako paalisin ng amo ko kahapon eh, natatakot na hindi mag call in ang tao ng Sunday, ang sagot ko - are you for real? Hahahaha… Kahit 20 feet ang snow uuwi ako, kahit maglakad ako ng nakaluhod. Am just not comfortable sleeping there. Takot mapagsamantalahan? Hahaha. Hindi din! Takot ako sa contamination!!! Hahahaha as in biohazardous stuffs… Ekkkk!]
Ngayon lang ako nagpala ng snow for a very longgggg period of time. At hindi na mauulit ito kasi next week lilipat na ulit ako sa condo wheeeeeeeee… *Ang sakit sa braso ang sakit sa lower back, kakagaling lang ng tuhod ko, ngayon eto panibangong sakit na naman ng katawan.* Pota [Don’t say bad words!]
After I cleared the drive way, I took a dive on the other side of the driveway - you know kasi, I word hard - I even play harder bwahihihihi… I wanted to make maize con heilo and a snowman (Hahaha parang ngayon lang nakakita ng snow? Bagong salta? Lol.) But then, I didn’t. It’s texture is still soft — just perfect for a snow cone lol.
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