I have alot of self-esteem, which is amazing. Cause I am probably somebody who wouldn't necessarily have alot of self-esteem... As I am considered a Minority.
If you are a woman, a person of color, gay/lesbian/bisexual/trans-gender, a person of size, a person of intelligence, a person of integrity... Then you are considered a Minority in this world.
Since I am not allowed to ingest anything by mouth yesterday aside from yosi, yours truly is tulala! I was sitting in the dinning room doing an entry and while I am concentrated looking at the monitor I saw something black on the side of my eyes. Parang may nakatingin sa akin! *Tingin sa kaliwa, tingin sa kanan* There was nothing! So I guess, dala ng gutom - nag ha-hallucinate na ako ahaha…
About 1AM I was watching TV in the kitchen and of course nakakain na ako by that time… I saw that black thingy again!!!
Kala ko mahihimatay ako! I want to scream on the top of my lungs - but my roommates were all as sleep… Pinigil ko ang aking emosyon! Pero hindi pa din mawalay sa isipan ko ang aking nakita kagabi… I am scared of
Two Sundays ago I was in NY diba? *Talagang uber busy ang lola, biruin mo siam-saiam bago mai-post?* Hahaha… Pucha hindi pa ako tapos sa Manila trip at eto may hirit pa! Nakamput!
Sorry for this last update lol, hindi ako makapag-update — for days masakit at maga ang mga binti at mga daliri sa paa ko juiceko day! Ikaw na ang lumakad from 35th street tapos bumababa sa 28th street tapos bumalik ulit papanik sa uptown 53rd street to be exact? Hahaha… From 28th up to 53rd I was just walking looking for best halal food I can find - but luck’s on my side, there’s sabret hotdog. Ekkkkkkk sawa na ako sa hotdog, and in that sabret cart
they have halal like kabobs as well as knish, ayaw ko noon - shawarma ang craving ko! *Naalala ko bandang 40th something-something ko natikman yong masarap na shawarma…* Hindi ko lang talaga maalala kung saan doon, kaya naman sinuyod ko sya na parang kuto! *Kamot ulo!* [Ginawa ko nga kahapon, nakakalimutan ko… 5 years ago pa. Yes 5 years ago ko natikman banda doon sa 40th street something-something yong masarap na shawarma lol.]
As I am watching the funeral procession of former President Cory Aquino in TFC - I was just amazed! It’s like I witnessed the people power in EDSA last 1986 noh, that brought democracy to many Filipino people. Graveh it’s like people power talaga. Ngayon lang ako nakakita ng ganitong karaming tao na sumisigaw ng Cory-Cory-Cory at nagtataas pa ng kamay nila ng Laban sign, habang nadaan ang kanyang labi sa bawat kanto ng ke-Meynilaan!
Thanks tita Cory for reestablishing democracy in the Philippines, if not for our ‘Laban’ Filipinos would still be under an abusive regime.
And I can’t wait no more! I will be living like a señorita sipping my piña colada in the Island of the Philippines wheeeee… *Kahit mangutang, basta makapag-bakasyon lang! Bwehehe* Okay lang 25 years to pay yon diba? Minimum payments lang naman yon! Mwahahaha… *Nakasangla na po ang kaluluwa ko kay Amex, Visa at Mastercard grrrr*
Ako’y alipin, ng aking mga utang!
I am a quite having jitters as of the moment. As in change of heart - ika nga. Paano ba naman kasi no, I haven’t been there for a very longggggg longggggggggggggggg longggggggg time kaya? (Me love you longgggg time?) When was the last time I was there? A year ago? Bwahaha [Lokaret!] Nashoshokot nga ako baka mapagkamalan akong artista at dumugin at ma-kidnap pa! Hahahaha!!! (more…)
Sorry to update this late! Uber busy ang lola nyo, paghahanp ng work lalush pangkabuhayan! You see I am not out, pero sa panahong ito ultimo sa mga les club eh pinapatulan ko na din. Hahaha… I don’t hangout sa mga les bar o kung saan mang ka lesbyanahan na lugar kasi nga hindi na ako OUT! ArgggggRrrrrggg… Hirap!
Pero noong isang araw, pinuntahan ko ang isang les bar dine sa kanto at chinekout ng lola nyo, aba baka may bakante sila doon kahit man lang bouncer pantawid gutom! Pero since it’s a small pub hindi daw sila nangangailangan waaaaaaaa… So naginom na la ng ang lola doon… Sa totoo lang lesbian clubs here in Jameirika sucks arg! (Except sa L.A. - Palaban po mga tibo doon!!!) Bakit kamo? Eh leche mga bar dito at sa Philadelphia na ang byaning puta alas 9 pa lang wala nang tao, naguwian na mga tibolya! Ayun walang tao ako lang!!! Ano kayang ginagawa nila sa bahay nila? Nagbuburda? Hahaha!!! You see kasi, kaya ako ganito dahil palake ako ng bakla? Kaya pariwara ako? Hmmm… It could be… But anyways… Ayon sa aking observation ha, these lesbians here sa club na to they just come and go as in order ng isa tapos uwi ano yon? *Uhaw ka ba neng?* Kaya kung mag bi-bisnis kayo never-ever think ang lesbian bar/club dahil lecheng mga tibo to ayaw ata gumastos at talagang lalangawin ang iyong bisnis! GrrrrrRrrrrRrrrr…
my stalker? Somebody sent me flowers, last valentines day *ganda ko? nakulot ang mga buhok ko sa ilong.* not just ordinary santan or gumamela fresh from the jardin ni lola ha, tulips daw sya freshly picked from holeland! I am so surprised as in!
<<<REWIND>>> Friday, Feb 13.
As usual I woke up late last Saturday afternoon [Ikaw ba naman makipag dinner ng 10 hours no?] Yesa! Me and some of my friends went out last Friday night, kasi nga daw loveless na kami tapos magbuburo pa daw ba kami sa bahay? So went out lalush ang mga bekbek sa paradigm. The food wasn’t that great at ang mahal-mahal pa pweeee, I ordered fillet mignon *I know it’s divided by, bakit ako o-order ng sliders? Hahaha.* (medium well - hindi ako nakain ng may dugo!) punyeta para akong nakain ng hallow block with a side of buhangin sa sobrang dry arggghh! Though I have enjoy their most expensive daw na wine *Lasing nga ako diva?* hehehe… (It’s another experience yon lang masasabi ko, at masasabi ko na once in my life, kahit papano nakakain ako sa sosyalan bwahahaha…) Sorry walang pektors, sosyalan - nakakahiya mag pektor baka sabihin, alam nyo na taga-boonduck.
<<<FAST FORWARD>>> Saturday, Feb 14.
While walking down the stairs, pramis kumapal ang buhok ko hehehe… I saw nakita ko ang 1800-flowers na bukas na, of course doon yan sa amo kong nag-feeling Bb. Pilipinas 2nd runner up noong Feb 14 noh! And then I saw nakita ko another box from proflowers an unopened box. [While approaching where the box full of flowers, I was feeling kinda hmmm envious/angry/furious/sad/lonely eklachuchu ha.] Ang ganda naman ni Chuva? 2 boxes of flowers on valentines day pa mismo and it is a Saturday delivery? Arghggg, handang-handa na ako kunin yong jungle bolo ko ng bigla ko makita ang aking full name… Ekkkkkkk, ang tangi kong nasabi sa aking sarili? GLYD as in
If I were a boy. I would turn off my phone. Tell everyone it’s broken. So they’d think that I was sleeping alone. I’d put myself first. And make the rules as I go. ‘Cause I know that she’d be faithful. Waiting for me to come home, to come home.
If I were a boy. I think I could understand. How it feels to love a girl. I swear I’d be a better man…
By the moon and the stars in the skies. And I swear. Like the shadow that’s by your side
I swear kumapal ang buhok ko!
Iba talaga ang nagagawa kapag may pera ka. Kapag pag mayaman ka diba?… Eksampol na lang: Ang tawag mo sa sugat ay rashes samantalang kapag ikaw ay mahirap galis aso ang tawag jan - Ang sagwa diba??? Ito pang isa, kapag mayaman ka at pokpok ka liberated ang tawag doon kapag ikaw naman ay mahirap ang tawag jan ay putah-putah o kaya naman ay paka as in pakawala. At kung addict ka man at mayaman ka ang tawag sayo eh social-user… Si Tehankee social-killer ekkkk eccentric o may toyo/baliw sa words ng isang mahirap! Bwahahaha… Wala lang just tots.
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