Diwatang Byaning

So I therefore conclude I am not a failure!!! I tried to break free with it for a week or 2 weeks but am just not at my best at that time. [long time ago.] I think I am ready now. Hahaha pinaghandaan talaga?

I know I have a demon inside me we all do mga ka-Ovarrio! (Lucky me…) compared to other people I know. Some have demon in their houses; may alam nga ako - their freaking demon knows how to criticize, cook, drink, give child support? *Baet? Hahaha, nasisiraan ng baet kamo! Syet!* laundry, dial the phone [ekkkk, marunong kaya syang mag tix?] What else? Those damuhong demonyo can do just any verb you can imagine. Pootah!

I have a long time love/hate relationship with smoking! A FA-Q and nothing but a FA-Q, is that, it’s longest relationship I ever had in my entire life. Love and hate baga? Hahahaha… Love that every smoke that comes outta my mouth. It simply satisfies my addiction to nicotine, and yet every smoke that comes out sa pugon ko gives me fear… A fear; like what’s going to happen to me if I don’t stop now…

So when is one really ready to break free from it? I am not ready and I don’t think I will ever be anytime soon… But if I don’t try now, when will I? When it’s too late? *Wala na akong baga?* Hahaha… I guess no one is a failure, unless they stop trying!

Life is precious and is worth fighting for…

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Last week I was sick worried that either having an early monopause or I am preggers [Walang himala, my brotha is not a pig.] Footangenang syet I was delayed noh tapos ito pa nagsusuka ang ateng ano ba yon? Eh di buntis, not monopausal. Ganun ba talaga pag di nakakainom ng allergy pill? I just missed a day with allegra noh…

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Cam whoring???

Ahhhh talaga ha, ganyan pala ang ginagawa nyo kapag wala ako?

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For the byaning trooperz found a place already that’s within their means o sige na nga criteria daw aka budget/section8

No.1 Parking — ekkkk laki ng parking doon sa park which is 5 kandirits away from the house yon nga lang kelangan mong mag vest ng bakal lol, sabi ng kebigan ko anywhere in the city you need to where a vest, which is not bad kasi ang neighborhood na ito isang vest lang ang kelangan.

No.2 Laundry — daming washer sa tapat ng property hahaha maytag pa kamo!, Tapat nya LavanderaKo noh!

No.3 Accessibility — lurve it sobrang accessible ng padyak! Isang kandirit asa Vietnam/Italian town ka na, at ang bus hindi once a month nadaan - trice a month naman po bwahahaha…

I am so excited to move in the city!!!

The byaning trooperz next assignment is to look for a storage hehehe…

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pokengina! kaurat na ang weather dito — it really, really, really, really, really really really sucks not for play-play! *On my dead seryus tone* pucha minsan kala mo may unos sabay pagkatapos ng isang araw kala mo tag-inet na ulit, syet na malagkit — nagkadikit-dikit sa pwit.

balot na balot sa damit ang ateng nyo, just like in the above image, nakanang boogie o. i didn’t know that it’ll be this hot today — fukingina, kung alam ko lang di sana nilabas ko yong mga 101 colors tang-ga at peplum ko?

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I’ve been in hell for almost errrr 10 months ata, (vacations, day offs, rendezvous not counted lol.) parang sangol na di mailabas-labas sa sinapupunuan ampotah ganun katagal overdue na. Sabi ko nga yong bahay ko noon parang nasa Jalalabad/Chechnya/Iran/North Korea/Peshawar/Impiyerno sabay ikot sa purgatoryo sabay balik ulit ng Jalalabad/Chechnya/Iran/North Korea/Peshawar ugh… Everyday in that span of 10 months hmmm exxag siguro hmmm 8 months sige na nga! I’ve been losing 10 lbs of ego/5 kilos of self-esteem/10 tons of confidence everyday. Trulala!!! Syet.

Home, home, home, oh home! Wheeeeeeeee - psshhht… Priceless! *You really get what you pay for, kaya kung hindi ka nagbabayad ng renta — sigaw ang abot mo bwahahaha! For reals…*

Naalala ko noon, kung saan-saan ako natutulog. Ganun kung saan na lang dapuan ng antok. Minsan sa upuan sa mall (Napagod kakalakad? O walang pang shopping?) sa lobby ng Bally not so total fitness at kung saan-saan pa! But now I can say - loud and froud Am here, Am queer get use to it! that I found home, I am much more happier and at peace - I feel hole again…

Others may prefer their home to have a dash of Balinese or Japanese eklachuchu in it… I prefer mine, Filipiniana! Sariling atin… Of course, love your own!

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So imperfect? Ganun? *Huh, who me? Tingin sa kanan, tingin sa kaliwa, much better — tingin sa salamin. Acccckkkkkkkk, syet hu is u?, Bakit ngayon ka lang? Ang gandang nilalang! Perfect! Hehehe.*

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When I see the sun am feeling so high… Am addicted to life… Am addicted to the beautiful days… And beautiful smiles…

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Ano yon bulate, bakterya, mikrobyo? Ackkk - Today as I wake up sa mala motmot kong room [Kasi ang aking windows may shutter, sosyal? Parang feeling ko nga nasa Anito ako eh. Mapa-umaga/gabi sa akin gabi lagi shhheet!] Ang putla ko na nga, di nasisikatan ng araw?

So anyways para on topic! Nagising ang lola na in peace (yong wala akong inintindi na kasama.) — and wala lang, I am sooooooo soooooooo sooooo thankful! Na tahimik eklachuchu na yung buhay ko, yong ganun ba? For 8 months grabe just picture this - daig ko pa ang pumunta sa Kosovo/Albania/Jalalabad/Chechnya sabay umikot sa imperno ugh at sabay bumalik ulit sa Kosovo/Albania/Jalalabad/Chechnya sabay side trip sa North Korea bwahaha, just imagine kung paano at gaano yan…

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