Diwatang Byaning

I am scared for next year, I dunno what’s gonna happen to me - to us… I know it’s still next year, I still have alot of time to think things over and over and over but time seems really fast especially for someone like me. [Busy person ako no! Kailagan mo muna ng appointment sa akin bago mo ako makausap.] Just thinking of “TIME” it really sucks! As I always tell her… Time is slowly taking you away from me - sighhhh (Sabay buntong hininga na kala mo pasan ko si dabyana!)

She really is decided to go back to Thailand and continue her studies there!- yeah sucks for me, I don’t know anyone/anybody there and I don’t speak and understand the language! (But I am trying thou…) Matatangap kaya ako ng mga byenan ko? Ibang lahi ako… Hindi ko alam! Bahala na.

We could settle in the Philippines and or in Thailand, but it’s the same thing for me… I dunno and don’t have anybody there. Not just that, one of my issues are, what am I gonna do there? Like work wise? Will I/We survive? Can my blogging support my lifestyle? (Eh paano kung walang Opps? Dahil sobrang gahaman ang iba jan lol!) How about the American dream? The free honey, cheese and apples that I get every month from welfare, yeah from other peoples taxes! It’s really hard to make such decisions like this…

Thailand is like Philippines also… They are also struggling from it’s own economy and will never employ someone like me that is a foreigner. [Katulad ko na malaki ang talent fee!]

Anong tarbahu ko kung sa Pinas ako? Call center, na mas may twang pa sa akin ang mga magiging kasamahan ko doon? Kung sa Thailand naman, malamang Madam ng mga babae sa Patpong! LOL. Kung saan liligaya ang mahal ko, doon ako! Supurtahan ko sya. [Bakit ba kasi hindi na lang dito sa Hamerika! Grrrr…] Sinong hahamig ng aking bwanang sustento mula sa gobyerno?

Tsaka ko na iisipin yong pagiging Theravada Buddhist, masyadong strikto… Bawal to, bawal yan… Huwag mong gawin to, huwag mong gawin yan! Waaahhh, pagiging byaning hindi bawal? Bawal uminom, bawal kumain ng baka at bawal manigarilyo dami-daming bawal! I cannot be with someone who eats beef… My Mom told me to break if off, if you don’t stop smoking… You not care me… *Echoooooing in mind right now*

One thing I know, the only thing in life that is permanent is CHANGE! [Sa mundo walang sigurado!, kainis sigurista pa naman ako.] Hindi natin malalaman ang sagot kung hindi natin susubukin gawin, eksampol na lang si Reyna sa kanyang mga adventures at misadventures noong nakaraang 2 taon.

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