Diwatang Byaning

I need to lose 10 lbs. or more in the next two weeks, and 30 more lbs. starting September for my wedding next year in the Philippines and in Thailand.

Baka iwanan na ako ng jowa ko, aktuali kasalanan nya itong lahat!!! Luto kasi ng luto eh, alangan naman hindi ako kumain? Alangan naman titigan ko lang yong pagkain??? [I swear ang shuba ko!] Kahapon ko lang napuna, ang laki-laki ng chan-nena ko. Manas ang feeling ko!!! Ayaw ko na… Ayaw ko ng ganito. [Ang pwetty ko parang napunta sa che-nena ko!] Hagdan-hagdan palayan kamo ang itchura… 3 weeks from now mag beach pa naman ako, ano to bonus salbabida?

Noong nakaraang Sabado, bumili ako ng damit-china, hindi ko na isinukat dahil alam ko naman ang aking sukat. May lakad ako sa susunod na biernes, sinubukan kong isukat kahapon dahil gusto kong makita ang dating nya… Nang, biglang halos maduwal-duwal ako sa itchura ko. Nandidire ako sa sarili ko sa harap ng salamin. Hindi ko ma take ang itchura ko. Nakakarimarim!

Lahat gagawin ko, kahit ano mawala lang ang sobrang taba sa katawan ko. Kung kinakailangan kong tumira sa gym at mag work-out ng 12 oras araw-araw gagawin ko! At kung kinakailangang hindi kumain gagawin ko din, kung kinakailangan din na cha-a at papakin ko ang capsula ng ballerina okay lang din na ito lang laman ng katawan ko gagawin ko. Lahat, kahit ano gagawin ko maging kasing payat lang ni bryanboy!

I am on a diet again. I will never be off from a diet! I will die alone and fat!

Last night I spent 1 1/2 hrs at the gym… Work-out kung work-out todo na ito! Kung hindi lang ako nagpuyat kagabi malamang kaninang 5am kinarir ko ulit ang pagbuat ng barbels at takbo ng 15 miles. I am back to eating fruits again… No meat except on weekends… I want results!!! And I want em’ NOW!

Do you know that the first thing you loose on a diet is brain mass? Fact or Fiction?

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I felt really, really down last week… It was indeed a very tough week for me! There had been alot of challenges lately… What I felt was I sad/depress/angry and I loathed just everybody that cross my way, including myself! *Lintek, daig ko pa ang naka downers noong nakaraang lingo! Para akong naka tira ng tataritas na sinamahan ng amoy ng bawal na utot!* Ganun ako ka down. Feeling ko nga may bipolar disorder na ako eh. Lala ko may ADHD slight autism tapos may comlikasyon pa ng bipolar? Waahhhh!!!

Eh paano ba naman, kung lait-laitin na lang ako noong naturingang kong kaibigan ko daw eh. Baka may mailabas lang akong di karapat-dapat! Sus, kala mo eh kung sinong mayaman! Kung alam nyo lang, hayy nako ayaw ko na lang magsalita. Nilait-lait lang naman ako, na kesyo hindi ako nakatapos sa aking pagaaral… Na kesyo atchay lang daw ako! Eh ano ngayon? Ang masama kung may pinagaralan ako let’ say may MBA ako tapos nagpaka atchay ako diba? Doon ako mahiya diba? Korek ba ang rasyonal ko dito? Atsaka kahit na atchay lamang ako, kumikita ako ng $60,000.00 a year neto! *Charing lang, hindi pala ako yon… Kapwa nanny ko lang po! Hindi ako yon okay… Wag nyo akong pa kidnap, wa akong angie!* O diba prestige lang ang wala sa tarbahu naming mga nanny! Pero mas malaki pa kamo kumita ang ibang nanny jan, parang sahod na din ng isang nurse o doktor no! Doktor? Exxag lang ako lol.

Downers na nga ako diba, sabayan pa ba ng jowa ko? Na akala ko eh susuporta sa akin eh isa din sa nagpa down sa akin!

Sabay-sabay kamo ang mga ka-bad-tri-pan sa buhay ko! Araw-araw iritable ako. Hindi ako masaya, walang ngiting makikita sa aking mga mata. Bakas na bakas ang kalungkutan sa aking mga muka. Na tila pasan ko ang daigdig. *Mala Sharon Cuneta!* I just hate being like this. I hate, hating people. This is not me.

Ngayon up na ulit ako! [YEHEY] Kung mga dalawang lingo pa kamo akong na ka down baka nagpakatiwakal na kamo ako. (Depression really hurts, and that’s TRUE!)

Today I decided to put myself back again in the pedestal! Whoa, bigat ba? I will be on track again… Tomorrow I will be re-born… It’s the return of the comeback! Yeah, after working out earlier, and I was in the shower I told myself to just start anew… Wash down the drain all those negativeness inside me. [Todo hilod kamo!]

I promise myself, no one and nobody can put me down and belittle me anymore! I will be as arrogant as I could be! [Para hindi ako makain ng buhay!] He he he… Laban kung laban!

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Kung ang ibang tao may tinatawag na “katas ng Saudi” I call this Katas ng Blogging! LOL.

Bahala na sa Sabado o sa Lingo, mangyari kung anong mangyari! Balitaan ko na lang kayo! Abangan susunod, rebelasyon!

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So last week we went to Hershey Park it is quite an adventure! I don’t like doing rides, the only ride that I do are just kiddie rides lol promise! It makes me very light headed especially roller coasters! I mean for reals my life is enough roller coaster for me!!! *hah aaahhhaa*

(Nang makita kong naka sweat pants at long sleeves sya… Sa isip-isip ko *Hoy baklita ka hindi tayo mag wo-work out no!*) Ayaw pala jumitim… Ahh okay.

The park has like about 6 not sure big roller coasters, dang and I think we did 4 or 5 can’t remember anymore I still have that hung over from that ride last week! [If not for Manat, I won’t do it.] May pagka mayabang at mapagpangap talaga ako, kunwari mani lang sa akin pero kung alam lang nya masuka-suka na ako at nakapikit pa ako. I actually got sick that next Monday, I even did not go to work for 2 days. [Lola nyo parang nag concert sa park, paos na paos ako grabe! Malamang kakatili… Eh kung makatili pa naman ako, gumuguhit ang mga ugat sa leeg at noo ko]

That is really good and bad that the lines at the ride was like 45mins - 2 hours waiting! Good cause I don’t have to pretend like I am really enjoying that ride… I enjoy it because she was with me and at the same time I almost throw up in her face! Bad… bad… bad… I am very impatient person, I don’t like waiting. It makes me really bored and sleepy and besides it was so hot at that time!

Iyon na nga after ng ride na iyan may mga cameralicious pala doon! At hindi ko alam eh di sana pro-mo-ject ako at nag strike-a-pose!!! Nakakatawa talaga ang ichura ko sa coaster mukang takot na takot, tapos ang Manat todo smile hanggang tenga pa kamo, sabi ko na nga ba anti-christ talaga sya!!! Wala akong nakitang takot sa muka nya… Bukod na lang pag ako na ang kaharap nya (paano kaya nya nalamang may kodakan doon sa spot na yon? *kamut-kamut ulo*) Gusto pa kamong bilihin ang pichuraka? Huwaattt? Nakita mo ba ichura ko? Halos kulang na lang sa laki ng bibig ko eh maisubo kita ng buo!)^&%$@!

(O diba parang sila ang may ari ng cam! Obyus naman diba… Parang kay Manat nga tong cam na to talaga, pangako! Isa lang lang akong tagahawak at tagakuha… ngawrls!)

It was fun and at the same time very tiring too! Imagine aga-aga namin doon! (palibhasa mga lesbiana!) Pero it is such a good deal thou (ano daw? good dildo?) yeah i got the tickets for like $15.00 a piece with lunch buffet, ganun talaga pag may pagka magulang at tuso ka! Actually i think those tickets are just for free kasi naman no… May pagka tuso at magulang din naman ang nagbigay noon!!! GrRRrr…

(Kukunan daw ako ng Manat ng pichuraka, mantakin nyong biglang nag lo bat!) Kaya pala nga ako gustong kunan eh!

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L is for the way you look at me orfor the Libog in you!

O is for the only one I see

V is very, very extraordinary

E is even more than anyonethat you adore can

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I’ve tried to tell
I’ve tried to sing
I’ve tried just la la la ia

I’ve tried to play
And also dance
Like this, just to let it go

I just want to give you
If I tell you
If just la la la ia

I just want to be
With your singing
With you just la la la ia

Just like this rainstorm
This August day song
I dream of places far beyond

Hearing the rain fall
From the grey, a shining here
I stay alone, distracted
Same tone
Same sound
How It’s good, so good

Just like the rainstorm
This August day song
I dream of places far beyond

Hearing the rain fall
A drop here in my foot
I stay alone, so distracted

I am not gonna cry
When remembering
Your eternal glance

I like to sing
And do these things
With you just for a change

I hear your voice
I sing for choice
With you just la la la ia

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I just had the most fabulous weekend! Last Friday I went out for drinks and drinks and drinks and drinks and guess who I saw? The infamous Kori! Well she came up to me first while I was talking to Manat and my cousin (Nakikiusyosu baga ang Kori at bakit hindi ko na sya i-ni-istalk, at siguro gustong kilatisin kung bakit ako mukang tuko at kuhol at that moment.)

I saw her already with forms in her hand so I taught she is looking for some people to fill up those forms for her since she is working for some NGO that has something to do with Asians. I just pretend not seeing her. Cause I don’t want to be the first one say HI to her, after what happend last time? (Ako pa eh mapagpangap ako no!) After five minutes she came back, again I saw her eye-balling me… [Huwaaat??? Porket ba may kasama ako at hindi kita pinapansin, eh papansinin mo na ako?] Yeah she came up to us and greeted me, asked me hows things with me and if I had move already from suburb to the city?… Every things fine with me! I haven’t move to the city, but have move to a very nice neighborhood thou ang sagot ko… Yeah I will be leaving next month for India. Ohh really? That’s good! Well goodluck and wish you well always! [At nagpaalam na ang bruha.] I still want her! Grrrrrrr. Pero may asawa na ako at mahal namanako ng asawa ko. Napagalamanan ng aking mga Lesbian Elves na ang Kori pala eh mamamayagpag sa India for a two year fellowship para sa kanyang Master’s Degree and while there she will be working again for some NGO. [Enough of KORI! Ako naman, this is my blog. So ako ang bida pa din dito!]

I am actually very tired, imagine Friday we stayed up until 5AM (We got home around 3ish and don’t ask me what happened at the extra two hours! Mga chismosa!) And yeah we still have plans the next day to go to Hershey Park-*I will be posting the photos later*, which is 2 hours away from where I lived. [Hayy kapagod.] We managed to get up pretty early, we just had like 3 or 4 hours of sleep. [Kaya naman ngayon pareho kaming may sakit ng asawa ko.]

I got discounted tickets at Hershey, they sell regular tickets for like $46.00 with out food! You want to know how much I got mine? … $15.00 with food all you can eat! You just have to have the right connections! [Sa kagulangan ako ay number 1!]

It was very good that last Saturday it was not that hot and humid, it was just fine weather was like in it’s 80’s.

But going to theme parks like that, you better have alot of time! Just for the lines — we have to wait the maximum of 45 minutes! CRAZY!!! We just had like a total of about 5 rides maybe… A virtual reality (Leche taga! Ibalik nyong $5 namin!!!) We get to do rock climbing, ang Manat sanay na sanay… Kala mo Igorot sa mines view kung makapanik! [Kakahiya nga eh, sa bigat ko 1/4 lang natapos ko hingal na hingal ako jusko day! And to think easy pa ang kinuha ko!]

With all this… We finished around 10:30PM and decided to go home, traffic on the way out of the park is horrible you would not imagine that! We got stuck in traffic for almost an hour, And by the time we got home again it’s 3AM it’s worth it just tiring! Again we need to get up very early the next day ay ako lan pala cause my ass has to do some serous BBQ-ing [Diba malapit na nga akong mag tayo ng beer garden dito! Araw araw na lang inihaw ang nilalapang namin.] And for dinner she has to cook some Thai food for us. — Again will be posting the photos later.

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This is the Before…

The After…

I got my paycheck from my new employer. (nasuwelduhan na din po ako sa wakas, kaya ayan viola agad ako ng sham.)

I will still do some improvements in this room, next time I will concentrate on my entertainment center. I guess, I just have to wait for my next paycheck.

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